First, I would like to get straight that I usually don't think a whole lot before I speak, and how I write is very similar to the way I talk, so don't expect a filter..sorry mom.
I got this whole blog idea from my sister-in-law, who is someone I would say I'm closest with in my life. She thought I could share my life as a up-and-coming-musician's-girlfriend, which I personally don't think is too exciting but hey, you're your own worst critic..(?) (Does that saying even work here..?) Honestly I have NO idea what I'm doing when it comes to think cyberspace world of blogs (blogoshpere?), so get ready for a fun, unpredictable roller coaster ride that may become my blog..ha.
In all seriousness, I do hope you enjoy my site. As a 20something woman this day in age trying to find her way, while also trying to help the love of her life find his way, I have a lot of thoughts throughout my day. I would love to share my thoughts with you, maybe somewhere in my brain is something that relates to something in your brain! This blog is just simply my mind, written down. And through my experiences in a 2 year long, long distance relationship, quitting college, moving away from home only to start then quit my first big girl job within a month, and navigating through the life of a girl watching her boyfriend live in the limelight from backstage, I've ended up with a lot of life experience in a VERY short amount of time, and it's been tough, and a little weird. I met this smokin' hot cowboy at a music festival 8 hours from home, fell in love and moved across the state to be with him two years later. I got a job managing a bar and grill at the age of 20 and stood back and watched as that burned down into oblivion. Now here I am unemployed writing a blog (so cliche I know..ha) and somehow when I look over at that goofy face that I love so much, I feel like runnin' all over the country from gig to gig is exactly what I should be doing. HELL WHY NOT.
And there's something about my life and my relationship that is so beautiful to me, nothing ever stays the same, and if it does, you're doing something wrong. You never know what kind of surprises are waiting for you. I like that, I feel like my whole life up to this point has been expected, and stagnant. It makes me feel like my life isn't all planned out for me the moment I'm born, like I really do have a say in what my future holds, and I can always change it if I want. And when it all goes up in flames, I only have myself to blame. Nothing is mapped out for me. I have no idea if what I'm doing is right or wrong. But I'm starting to think living your life make right choice after right choice probably isn't a life that teaches you anything, or is even fun to any extent. I've learned nothing is right or wrong. And I'm not trying to sound like your tenth grade music teacher trying to get the class to participate by saying there is no right or wrong answer..I'm serious. The choices we make every day create what will soon become our future, which turns into our past before we know it. Sometimes making mistakes takes you to a place in your life that is better in the long run. Not all mistakes turn into regrets. And what you think may be the right thing at the start can become your biggest regret in the end. The best thing you can do, is trust your heart and follow it. My life right now is a 180 flip from what it was 6 months ago simply because I stopped following what my head said and started acting on what my heart was telling me. Yes, it is easier to do what everyone else is doing. To do things logically and safely and go to school, get a job, get married, have a family in the suburbs and wonder what it would be like to be doing something different. Or you could just DO something different. Make your whole life fun and do what you love. It doesn't matter what anyone thinks because it is your happiness. What you love may not be the same as what everyone around you loves, but that's what makes life interesting; and they'll be really taken aback when you flip em the bird after they try and tell you you're livin' your life wrong. Throw it all away and see what happens if you take a different path. It may be hard, but I've been happier since I did it. I'm constantly coming to roadblocks and having to survive through them, but I guess I kind of like the risk of it all.
I've always wished that there was a guide book to being the girlfriend of the country star, maybe it's about time I just write it myself.
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