While Zach was away on tour for the month of January, my dogs were all I had to keep me company, and sometimes Matt too, he always made sure to check on me and send kindness my way because he knew I was having a hard time with Zach being away. I built the most amazing bond with my dogs over that particular month and I got to know a side of Matt that I was thankful he showed me. My babies were our whole lives. They were our exercise when we needed it, running around together in the fields at Ahtanum park. They were my support when I felt so lonely. They were our personal lick-you-in-the-face alarm clocks. They were, aside from each other, our best friends and truest companions in life. Our little amazing family. They brought so much joy into our lives and we can very much feel their absence in our home. It feels like my little family was ripped down the middle and in the blink of an eye I lost all of that. Zach and I are both going through a lot right now, more than we've ever had to deal with as a couple. We've held each other as we cried out our agony of a loss that cut us so deep. And we are slowly lifting each other up. I want to say thank you for all the love and support anyone has sent our way, it really does help. Right now we don't understand why such horrible things are happening to us, but we are sure that eventually God will reveal what kind of lesson he is trying to teach us. I've never felt this kind of pain and I've never experienced a tragedy like this but Zach, his family and I are growing stronger every day and I'm so proud of their strength. New life will come and happiness will be found as long as we have each other. No one wants to get the call that I got twice in the same week, but Zach and I have found a new power in our relationship that we didn't have before and I'm grateful for that. Mostly I'm grateful for him and the love, compassion, and never ending kindness that he has given to me all the time I've known him. Through seeing each other at our absolute rock bottom it has opened our eyes to our great potential in the future. We are healing, and we will make it. Our babies will be missed and our beloved brother will be in our hearts forever, but it's our job to pick ourselves up and be there for the ones we love because they are hurting too. Thank you for taking the time to read what I've been trying to put together for a while now. I'm slowly learning that showing your weaknesses can help you more than bottling up your sadness and anger. I'm thankful for the people in my life supporting me that have taught me to accept the shoulder they've been offering me to cry on. Thank you so much for being there for us.
In loving memory of Ellie, Angus, Duke and Matthew Hinson. We love you so much. May you rest in paradise.